[The careful word choice helped. Lorenzo wasn't ever good with words in his eyes, no matter how many people said he was. Or rather... said that "Lighter" was. "Lorenzo" never had the way with words his past self did. And it was that new hurdle he faced that made his mad thoughts of "this is my mate" even more intimidating.]
... I won't lie, I was thinking the same thing. I just didn't really know how best to say it without being too blunt. I'm not exactly a delicate guy, but you know that by now.
[Lighter tried to meet Maxima's eyes and did mostly succeed, but habit had him avert them more than once. Looking into another person's eyes was still hard for him. He was still scared of what he'd see looking back. It almost made him thankful for the injury to his own eyes making him need dark shades.]
I don't mind keeping what we've got going right now. [He gestured between them.] I like what we have as it is and you're a good friend. So, you don't have to look so worried about me. We're on the same page.
[Even though Lighter looked just as worried. Mostly because there was more to say. "I'm not ready." "I'm scared." "I don't even know who I am anymore sometimes." "I might be the guy who makes your luck run out."
All of it was extra fluff. What mattered was they were in agreement.]
Thank goodness. [Relief washes through his expression immediately.] That is...I'd understand, if something had changed, or if you wanted space. But...
[It would sting. He's been hurt so much worse far too often to even count something like that as truly painful, but it would be unpleasant without a doubt, to distance himself from this connection when they're still settling into it in some ways.] Well, I'm glad.
[There is still something lingering behind Lighter's eyes, he can see it, but he isn't at all sure what it might be.] ...And thank you, too, for being open to having these conversations. The ability to speak freely is something I haven't had very often in my life.
Don't worry, I get what you mean. [He would have been sad but quietly accepted it in lieu of showing his pain. Maxima was that kind of respectful guy. Enough that it made Lighter a little concerned sometimes.
It was a bit weird for Lorenzo to get this close with someone. He wasn't a guy to mince words ever but he tried not to be a total asshole to people who don't deserve it. Just preferred to tell people what they need to hear.]
It's good to have someone you don't have to think as hard with. I'm glad I can be the guy you don't have dance around things with.
[It's fine. He can handle and process hurt all by himself. He's had to get really good at doing that. Which is completely fine.]
As am I. [He smiles encouragingly at Lighter, and then stretches a bit, wincing at all the scrapes and bruises the movement pulls on.] ...A shower, I think, first. Then I'll help you clean up around here.
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... I won't lie, I was thinking the same thing. I just didn't really know how best to say it without being too blunt. I'm not exactly a delicate guy, but you know that by now.
[Lighter tried to meet Maxima's eyes and did mostly succeed, but habit had him avert them more than once. Looking into another person's eyes was still hard for him. He was still scared of what he'd see looking back. It almost made him thankful for the injury to his own eyes making him need dark shades.]
I don't mind keeping what we've got going right now. [He gestured between them.] I like what we have as it is and you're a good friend. So, you don't have to look so worried about me. We're on the same page.
[Even though Lighter looked just as worried. Mostly because there was more to say. "I'm not ready." "I'm scared." "I don't even know who I am anymore sometimes." "I might be the guy who makes your luck run out."
All of it was extra fluff. What mattered was they were in agreement.]
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[It would sting. He's been hurt so much worse far too often to even count something like that as truly painful, but it would be unpleasant without a doubt, to distance himself from this connection when they're still settling into it in some ways.] Well, I'm glad.
[There is still something lingering behind Lighter's eyes, he can see it, but he isn't at all sure what it might be.] ...And thank you, too, for being open to having these conversations. The ability to speak freely is something I haven't had very often in my life.
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It was a bit weird for Lorenzo to get this close with someone. He wasn't a guy to mince words ever but he tried not to be a total asshole to people who don't deserve it. Just preferred to tell people what they need to hear.]
It's good to have someone you don't have to think as hard with. I'm glad I can be the guy you don't have dance around things with.
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As am I. [He smiles encouragingly at Lighter, and then stretches a bit, wincing at all the scrapes and bruises the movement pulls on.] ...A shower, I think, first. Then I'll help you clean up around here.
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Good idea. We... made a real mess of the place huh?
[And each other. Only stated as a matter of fact, not with any regret. If anything he sounded impressed and satisfied.]