[Lighter was grateful for anything done for him, that much was true. Even if he had a preference of letting what was meant to be be, even if that's... well.]
You're right. You've grown up like crazy since I saw you years ago. Treating you the same as I did back then's pretty disrespectful of me. I'm sorry. For that and for getting on you about what you did.
You're a good person, Jun. I'm thankful that you want me to live.
[He truly meant that despite feeling frustrated as hell right now. Jun didn't know the whole story about him, but that was Lighter's fault. How's a guy going to understand something if he's not willing to fess up about it?]
Well, it has been what? 8 or 9 years? Plus admittedly, I was going through stuff I didn't mention back then at the time -- so of course I've changed a lot.
[Jun doesn't know Lighter's past, not really. But Haru mentioned that he had the eyes of someone with survivor's guilt... so he carefully lays that bait out there, seeing if he gets a bite]
But I appreciate the apology. Truly. And I think you're a good person too.
[... He did. And that hurt even more. No one should have to feel this crushing guilt. See the faces of people who should be alive if they close their eyes for too long. It was bad enough Lighter felt this.
But unfortunately, it tracked didn't it? Why else would Jun have been so reclusive and avoidant when he was younger? Something happened, something that wasn't Lighter's business, that made him that way.
It wasn't a good place right now to get into any of that. Let Lighter's very long delay in response be its own answer.]
That's real nice of you to say. Has me smiling like a real goof right now.
Go on and get some rest. I'll do the same. I still wanna check in on you guys when I've got the all clear myself. I'll bring something along to liven up the atmosphere again.
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You're right. You've grown up like crazy since I saw you years ago. Treating you the same as I did back then's pretty disrespectful of me. I'm sorry. For that and for getting on you about what you did.
You're a good person, Jun. I'm thankful that you want me to live.
[He truly meant that despite feeling frustrated as hell right now. Jun didn't know the whole story about him, but that was Lighter's fault. How's a guy going to understand something if he's not willing to fess up about it?]
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[Jun doesn't know Lighter's past, not really. But Haru mentioned that he had the eyes of someone with survivor's guilt... so he carefully lays that bait out there, seeing if he gets a bite]
But I appreciate the apology. Truly. And I think you're a good person too.
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But unfortunately, it tracked didn't it? Why else would Jun have been so reclusive and avoidant when he was younger? Something happened, something that wasn't Lighter's business, that made him that way.
It wasn't a good place right now to get into any of that. Let Lighter's very long delay in response be its own answer.]
That's real nice of you to say. Has me smiling like a real goof right now.
Go on and get some rest. I'll do the same. I still wanna check in on you guys when I've got the all clear myself. I'll bring something along to liven up the atmosphere again.
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Alright. I'll look forward to that. I'm sure the others will be happy to see you too.
Rest well, Lighter. I'll be sure to do the same.